Baby Magic, the good news is that you are whole and healthy, active and alert. You're hanging out in the womb head up these days- much as your brothers and sister did until late in pregnancy. Although the Thai doctor was quick to label you "breech" I'm informed enough to know that this is NOT something we need to worry about until much later, when you're much bigger. And hopefully, like BBZ and BBV, you will turn on your own.
We got some pictures of you from the scan, but, they aren't much to look at. I mean... you have a nice round, whole head, we can see you have 4 working chambers in your heart, we saw your spine, and your legs. It's all there. But it's not the perfect little silhouette of a baby that we'd like to have. *sigh*. That's ok though.
We made it through the scan without seeing your between the legs parts, and now its out of our hands, as no more scans are planned. Ha ha ha! I know that makes some people so frustrated, but, we just love the surprise. You already are who you are, but, we won't find out if we have a sister or a brother until you're here. We are all still pretty confident you're a girl though.
The new school year is about to start, and I've been at work a few days already helping to prepare the classroom. There was a lot to do. A few long days have really worn me out! Whew! It isn't going to be super easy working with 3 and 4 years olds while carrying you around- last time I worked pregnant (and until 38 weeks at that), I was subbing, and mostly in older grades. But, I am super passionate about work these days, so that will make the days go by with more ease than otherwise. Anyway, it's good to keep moving.
The other good news is that with the return of the school year, I'll also get back to my exercise as my trainers come back to town after their summer holidays. I hope to do two sessions of Pilates a week, and one session of weight lifting. I wish I could AFFORD to do more, but, it is what it is, and that's ok. Also, 3 days a week will probably have me pretty worn out anyway.
I'm right in the middle of doing my blood sugar tests right now... so far, I've tested for 2 mornings, at waking, and then 2 hours after eating, and my numbers are PERFECT. I'm really glad of this, because about 2 weeks ago I went to the doctor because of how tired I was all the time, and that day my numbers were REALLY high. It must have been the sugary cereal I had for breakfast that day, because, I'm not seeing anything like it now. Phew. Just trying to keep you and me healthy, little person. Doing my best.
Tuesday, July 31, 2018
Wednesday, July 25, 2018
The half way point
I have always been good at taking pictures of my pregnancies... until now. This pregnancy, I am not doing it at all. Sorry, Magic. We'll have to remember other things about the time you spent in my belly, things besides how you grew. BUT, I realized the day I was 20 weeks that I was 20 weeks, and so I snapped a couple pics that day.
If there is one thing I can say again and again and again, it's that I love my pregnant body. I love the way I carry pregnancy. I love how easily I grow babies. I love how my body looks pregnant.
If there is one thing I can say again and again and again, it's that I love my pregnant body. I love the way I carry pregnancy. I love how easily I grow babies. I love how my body looks pregnant.
We have our anatomy scan on Saturday. Maybe we'll get a few good pictures of YOU to share. I promise to post them if we do.
Tuesday, July 17, 2018
The decrease in meds
Ah, Magic. I've had to do the thing for you. I've decreased my daily dose of meds. It's been a couple weeks now on the lower dose, and I am noticing some changes. A bit less patience. Far more ease staying in bed, falling back asleep, ignoring what's going on around me. Wanting to disconnect.
It's not great. But, it's what's best for us both. Staying on a minimum effective dose is vital for me, and being on the lowest possible dose is what's best for you.
I dare say my friends have noticed a change in me. Maybe even your dad. Who knows, maybe even your siblings. BBV has been extra clingy lately. Maybe that's why.
Living with a body/brain that doesn't produce enough of certain chemicals to keep me feeling my best is tough. I'd like to go off meds completely, and maybe some day I'll try. But, the last time I tried to go off was not pretty and not worth it. The difference the meds make is super clear to me. And just like I give my body other things it needs to function well, I will keep giving it these chemicals. It's better for all of us.
But, I also want to do what's best for you, and that means a lower dose right now. When you start solids, I'll probably be able to go back up to a higher dose.
Parents aren't perfect, and we have to make decisions weighing the pros and the cons. We have to do things that aren't easy, and we worry constantly about how it will impact you. I do hope that you won't have any long term side effects from my having taken medications while pregnant, but, if you do, I hope that you can forgive and understand that it was a choice I made, a compromise for the both of us.
It's not great. But, it's what's best for us both. Staying on a minimum effective dose is vital for me, and being on the lowest possible dose is what's best for you.
I dare say my friends have noticed a change in me. Maybe even your dad. Who knows, maybe even your siblings. BBV has been extra clingy lately. Maybe that's why.
Living with a body/brain that doesn't produce enough of certain chemicals to keep me feeling my best is tough. I'd like to go off meds completely, and maybe some day I'll try. But, the last time I tried to go off was not pretty and not worth it. The difference the meds make is super clear to me. And just like I give my body other things it needs to function well, I will keep giving it these chemicals. It's better for all of us.
But, I also want to do what's best for you, and that means a lower dose right now. When you start solids, I'll probably be able to go back up to a higher dose.
Parents aren't perfect, and we have to make decisions weighing the pros and the cons. We have to do things that aren't easy, and we worry constantly about how it will impact you. I do hope that you won't have any long term side effects from my having taken medications while pregnant, but, if you do, I hope that you can forgive and understand that it was a choice I made, a compromise for the both of us.
Tuesday, July 10, 2018
I am soooooo sleepy!
Oh sweet Magic. You make me so tired. So very, very tired.
Thank goodness it's summer break and naps have time in my daily schedule. Thank goodness my schedule next school year is half days all week- so hopefully I'll have enough time to rest as well.
I guess I'm not getting any younger, pregnancy doesn't get any easier on the body, and I now have 3 kids, a husband, a dog and a cat to deal with on top of everything else.
Your big brother V is potty training right now. He's actually doing really well. The only accident we've had recently is at night. That might be part of my problem. He's sleeping pretty well, but, I have to get up with him once or twice a night to either comfort him or move him because he's wet the bed. It'll all be worth it in the end, because an independent potty kid is a good thing... but, it takes some effort just now.
I think I am finally feeling you move more often. It's still nothing like how I could feel the other kids by this point, but, it simply must be that your placenta is in the front instead of the back. It's the only thing that makes sense. But, small movements have been coming through often enough that I think this is the only explanation. I do still get nervous- I can't help it. I'm looking forward to the end of the month when we get to have your anatomy scan and see if you have all your right parts.
Magic, I'm so tired I can't think what else to write. You will be the baby of this family, which means you will be forever loved on... but it will all look different than it did to your siblings. BSB's first couple of years are documented in detail through pictures and probably blog posts. Yours likely won't be because there just won't be the same time... but, you'll have 3 older siblings looking out for you. And you'll have the baby position in the family, which ok, maybe can be a blessing and a curse, but I think mostly, it means you'll always feel the love.
Thank goodness it's summer break and naps have time in my daily schedule. Thank goodness my schedule next school year is half days all week- so hopefully I'll have enough time to rest as well.
I guess I'm not getting any younger, pregnancy doesn't get any easier on the body, and I now have 3 kids, a husband, a dog and a cat to deal with on top of everything else.
Your big brother V is potty training right now. He's actually doing really well. The only accident we've had recently is at night. That might be part of my problem. He's sleeping pretty well, but, I have to get up with him once or twice a night to either comfort him or move him because he's wet the bed. It'll all be worth it in the end, because an independent potty kid is a good thing... but, it takes some effort just now.
I think I am finally feeling you move more often. It's still nothing like how I could feel the other kids by this point, but, it simply must be that your placenta is in the front instead of the back. It's the only thing that makes sense. But, small movements have been coming through often enough that I think this is the only explanation. I do still get nervous- I can't help it. I'm looking forward to the end of the month when we get to have your anatomy scan and see if you have all your right parts.
Magic, I'm so tired I can't think what else to write. You will be the baby of this family, which means you will be forever loved on... but it will all look different than it did to your siblings. BSB's first couple of years are documented in detail through pictures and probably blog posts. Yours likely won't be because there just won't be the same time... but, you'll have 3 older siblings looking out for you. And you'll have the baby position in the family, which ok, maybe can be a blessing and a curse, but I think mostly, it means you'll always feel the love.
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